My mind won't let me sleep once again, which really sucks... :(

Jay got mad at me today because I wanted to throw some junk from the closet away. He told me that instead of cleaning the closet, I should be cleaning something that actually matters...that people actually will see. Well, usually, I tell my friend's to hang their coats in the closet...so yeah, to me, that's an important place to clean. I can clean wherever the damn I want to clean because I'm the ONLY one who cleans anyway. He's too busy drinking, going to bars EVERY night of the week, and having a very interesting (but apparently confusing) social life. Jamie actually got a life recently, but still, whenever he's home, it's only video games he's usually concerned about. They're fricken adults too...they should learn to fricken pick up after themselves. Seriously!

I'm embarrassed to have friend's over in this pigstye. At least I have my room to escape to. Sure, it's not super clean either, but it sure is a lot better than the rest of the house. It's hard to keep up on everything downstairs, while 2 guys and 2 dogs make a mess EVERYWHERE!

School has become torture to me because I'm completely lost in a few subjects due to my increased procrastination (laziness, more like). I have no clue how I'm going to explain to my grandparents that they pretty much wasted money on college for me this semester because I pretty much haven't done anything.

I find that if I try to spend more time on my homework, my friends get mad at me because then I don't have much free time. If I spend more time with my friends, my homework slips. I really need to find out how to manage my time, and fit everything in in a balanced way.

I've only worked twice at Homestyle, but I forgot how much of an awesome distraction work can be from stupid life things. I've liked everyone I've worked with so far, and I'm still trying to learn new things, which means that my wandering mind is more focused! Plus, the awesome thing is that there's only 4 girls total there...the rest are guys! Which, in no offense to my own gender, but working with more guys and less girls will mean less drama! I love that!

I can't wait until I start making money though. I got 20 dollars in tips the other night, but I spent that all on gas. I'm running out of little things around the house almost completely. Plus, there is really no food here, which means I haven't been eating hardly anything. Jay says he's going to pick up some groceries, but he seems to forget that.

I really don't think that my ex-coworkers are ever going to pay me back. I don't know how I feel about that. I guess I want them too, but if they don't have the money, how can I expect them too. I believe that if I have money that I don't necessarily need, but someone else has no money and they need some, then why should I hold onto it? Living in today's economy really sucks...

Well, that's all I have to say for now. I'm going to go try the impossible again (a.k.a. falling asleep). Wish me luck :)