Worst week of 2008 by Far

This week was probably the hardest week of all this year. I got fired from my job. It's a new experience for me, and I'm trying to not be too depressed over it. It's hard to explain to people who did not work at that job, but that job was practically a huge part of my life. My heart and soul went into my work there. I loved the customers (could tell you a lot of their names, and the sandwiches they'd get by heart), the staff was like an extended family for me (and no matter how much I hate them for turning their backs on me, I still love them), but most of all, I took pride in how much work I put in there (yeah, that sounds cheesy, I know).

So, yeah, it sucks. This morning I had to do one of the hardest things ever. I had to return my key to the manager. I did it before the store even opened. There was a few more things that I would have liked to say to the manager, but I didn't expect the 'handing over the key' to be that emotional for me. Anyway, she's going to let the record show that I quit instead of getting fired. Also, she said that she would NEVER give me a bad reference.

That's all good, but I still feel betrayed. I feel like I lost a lot of my friends also. It's really cheesy, ya know. I didn't think I would ever be this emotional over losing a job. I mean, I'm only 19. It's not like I was going to work there forever. Heck, I was getting ready to quit soon anyway. But, to get fired...and to know that people are talking about you behind your back, really hurts. I'm boycotting Subway food. I'm not going into that place unless it's only a select few working. Even some of the people that I absolutely loved working with, I won't go in to see, because I know that they were the ones that were talking crap and making things up about me.

I don't think I could have gotten through the week if it wasn't for three people. They all are amazing people to talk to. (James, Joe, Nick). It seemed like everyone else was way too preoccupied to even care that I lost my job. But hey, I've got to remember...when times get hard, they all back out...I've learned this before...I don't know why I can't remember it.

Anyway, I'm back to concentrating on school, and looking for a job. I'm hoping to get in at the local pizza place soon. Subway picked a great time to fire me because I'm flat ass broke, which means, I'll have to put in extra hours...which is very hard to do at a new job. Trust me, I do remember that much.

Well, I still haven't slept, but I'm already ready for school. Today's going to be a long Monday. I have a five hour break, so I'll probably come home and sleep for a few hours before my night class. Either that or I'll just sleep in my car, who knows? Ach...I'm already getting sleepy. Time for some caffeine, for sure.