Why dream big? You need to work hard to achieve dreams, so why should you even have dreams if you just are not motivated to work hard? I do not know what to do anymore. I am completely lost in some little space in my head. It's dark in there...like a cave. All I have been doing since I got home at 2 is staying in bed, trying to sleep, or just searching for stupid things online. Danielle convinced me to go have dinner with her and Jon, but as soon as she dropped me off, back up to my room I went. I really just want to disappear.